eh

i feel... adrift. i have nothing to do, and my emotions have nosedived in strength, despite knowing an Armageddon is coming ver soon- scratch that, we are already in the middle stages of it. I'e known that, but it's so subtle to most of the world. it is really clear at times, but its not right now. things start to build and tthen- a week of vacation, everyone is going away, and it all stalls. i dont know what i should be doing, how to prepare. do i fight against it? its going to happen anyway, no mater what i do does trying to be norma count as denying it? it doesnt work anyway. so im cleaning my rool lol. i cant believe the stuff ive left around. its being shredded and recycled, for the most part. but i'm still sick, so its mostly undrcover. i have a dream to post later. o.c. time!