New Blog
weirdattacked.blogspot.com
i tried to link it, but it has issues.

Happy Birthday Katie!

Tuesday, that is. is it tuesday yet?

General To-Do List

1. Mathcounts
-do the effing practice tests
-do them without throwing anything
-learn to like them? *snorts*
2. softball
-figure out the upside-down changeup
-learn to pitch in the cold
-learn to like the outfield
3. I-Search
-verify/do interviews
-define topic
-spend time working instead of worrying
4. input
-buy espresso beans
-convince parents to buy caffeinated coffee
-remind parents to buy chai tea
-freeze lemon juice
5. room
-clean room
-organize fire hazard- i mean, paper storage system
-finish sanding walls
-paint walls

New Blog

i'm finally annoyed enough with my previous vocab mistake to change my URL. which means a new blog. I'm NOT intrepid. I'm mentally itenerary. something like that. new blog is weirdattacked.blogspot.com
:edit:
rawr. the day after i change, i find out i could have just changed the url of this one. well, whatever. i'm too annoyed to fix it. i'm using the new blog.

stuck in meloncholy

nothing horrible happened today. I finished my reading journal, got my vocab right, figured out how to paint clouds, had a successful softball practice and have no real homework. And my grades wont kill me. There's always mathcounts, but pshaw. i'm not even particularly stressed about that, amazingly. so why am i driftish...



so i'm a bloody icon thief. someone shoot me. but i usually only take one or two icons from each site, so it takes too long to site them all... and noone cares about blogger taking xanga icons. howevere the last bunch are from http://www.xanga.com/xRAWR_iCONSx
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people who drink at least two cups of coffee a day are 1/3 less likely to be stressed or iritated. it increases dopamine and serotonin. it's an antidepressant? i dont like the sound of that... i find drugs fascinating, but i dont want to be chemically happy.

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all from www.xanga.com/Hunni_iconz

softball is getting weirder and weirder... we had a practice with 8 members of the A-team today, the B-team used the gym after us. but the sign about that wasnt obvious, so the rest of the girls spent an hour randomly doing hw and stuff... and there's a lot of twisted politics about teams and positions. at this point we only have 11 players on the A-team compared to 18 on the B-team. go figure. and of course i still suck at fly balls, but we were running in the same direction as them... whatever.


me loves icons... the english one is for Woosle. i'd find one for other ppl, but that one just came out of nowhere... and they're all cool.
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Time for me to stop stealing icons. the ones below are from aLl_iC0NS_xO's xanga site.

xanga, deviantart

Despite the shadiness, you've got to love Xanga- for its icons.


residue from my moodiness. but the others are happy.


Truly. There has to be.


Doesnt the world realize how cruel it is?
(And i know i am guilty of buying leather. but i haven't since i fully realized what it was endorsing. and there are some things you cant avoid, like sneakers.)


'specially for woosle (havent seen any avacado ones...)


sugar is a drug. not that i care.


plus, deviantart.com has the beeest emoticons. example:

had softball practice today. was pretty fun. walked to the field, no-one was there. walked to the Ray gym, no coaches were there. walk back to the field and have practice. Had a realization: i'm on the A-team because i'm an 8th-grade pitcher who has control. other people are faster, but i'm normally good at getting strikes. but i had a bad streak today, and i was kinda worried, realizing- i can't afford to have bad streaks. but the teams are picked, and it's probly nothing. meh.

'Cause you can't jump the track,we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe,
breathe, just breathe

except i dont have time to breathe... I'm sorry if i've been depressing people. Please bear with me. You can ignore my posts if you don't feel like dealing with my mood swings... or at least the down sides.

bleh. a happier post is way overdue. The last week should just go away, but it wont, and the world is still turning, so it'll work out.

:edit: i suck. i really do. things start to get better, and then i'm so stupid they get worse, and then it fades away, and then it comes back because i'm stupid, and then it starts to be ignored, and then i realize i've been the stupidest person in the WORLD. i would go hide in the woods, but that would probly make it worse. i can only hope i wont be this stupid again. but knowing me, i will.

either i kill the I-Search or the I-Search kills me. Let the duel begin.

Because, you see, when you get to the end of your rope, you can do three things
1) Fall off
2) Tie a noose and hang yourself
3) Tie a knot and hold on

so i look at this tangled mess i've made of the end of my rope and wonder, is that a knot or a noose?